…my place…
Posted by Chief on June 14, 2006
…so, I’ve been reflecting over the last couple of weeks looking for something inspiring and thoughtful to write – and I am trekking down the karma path again. I feel like my place in life is to get close to understanding; get close to a known, a truth, a full realization of an abstract definition… only to find that I kick the can of enlightenment out of my reach again (not out of sight – just to make it more painful).
The miserable point of this is that I don’t directly remove the knowledge and truth about the subject (life, love, marriage, work, happiness, how to tip at dinner theatre’s) right at that moment right before epiphany(sp?). I find that I’ve kicked the can out of reach sometime before. Maybe days, weeks, or even years. It just sits in wait as I constantly attempt to adjust my life and my ways – until the light starts to get brighter, then it springs forth as furious as the day the regret was born. And again, I get zapped by the karma monster.
Well, anyway… here’s some good things to refocus my attention before I fully bake in the depression for the day:
I haven’t had any alcohol in over 9 weeks.
I started working on my degree finally.
My wife says that the only reason I haven’t cheated on her is that I haven’t had the opportunity.
(ok, that last one wasn’t good – but I just can’t shake it… and she said it 4 days ago.)
Back to the college… I’ve taken a few CLEP’s. I’m amazed at how much knowledge about random stuff I’ve accumulated over the years. I’m a high school graduate. I turned 18 in boot camp (17 years ago).
I CLEP’d out of: Social Sciences and History (6sh), College Algebra (3sh), English Composition (6sh), English Composition with Essay (6sh), Humanities (6sh), and Introductory Psychology (3sh). Yep, I passed them all. Tomorrow I take Introductory Sociology. Then I take the courses that I know I can’t CLEP out of: Calculus II, General Chemistry, Statistics, and Computer Programming.
Ok, that worked. I’m sufficiently refocused. Then I’ll be the 4th out of 5 in my immediate family to get a degree (even though I’m the oldest kid). My Mom and younger brother both have Masters Degree’s, and my Dad has a BA. Mine will be a BSAST (Bachelor[sp?] of Science in Associated Science Technology with a major in Nuclear Engineering Technology). Of course, my Mom’s Masters in Education looks impressive and my younger brother is a lawyer. So, maybe I’ll have to get a second degree. That just leaves my youngest brother. He’s in finance and is the smartest of all 5 of us. He gets too easily bored with the general subjects. I’ll have to talk to him about the CLEP’s.
Well, this was good therapy. I feel better and need to shower and get ready for work. This blog thing is good therapy.
…oh, and to help get the karma can moving down the field in the other direction, I helped my daughter1’s friend’s mom out by fixing a flat…
…but, don’t let me forget to talk about daughter2 and ex-son2 – just not right now…
